Helpess.

I hate to feel helpless. Especially knowing that there is a problem there and as much as I want to do something about it, I cant do anything about it. That feeling simply sucks. I really dont know what is going through your head. Fad has been telling me that I am going way too low for you. What do you want me to do? Its cause you have said so much and now your actions are not even tallying with whatever you have told me. I think I have reached a point where everyone around me is telling me that I have given you alot of chances and its you who is not doing anything about it. What do you want me to do? As much as I want it to work out between us, I really dont know what you want. I am very tired. Going off to wherever you have gone to itself is difficult for me to handle. I dont know what you are doing, how you are doing and whether everything is going fine for you. You could have helped my situation by at least sending a single message every night. But I dont even get that. I seriously dont know what is happening there. And before you left, you didnt call or message me. I do realise that that arguement had some implications on you but why behave like this? Okay, if you dont want to send me messages, its fine.But why are you not even replying to my messages? Do you know how i feel? I feel like a dirt. I feel like a loser. You are different now. I can sense it. If you wanna walk out of it, tell me. Dont keep me in the dark. I am not going to kill you if you decide to walk out. But please dont behave like this. Its really affecting me. I am trying my best to swallow it. I dont even know where this is going. I really dont. But thnks for making me feel like a loser. Thanks.