Production.

Work has started and I am going crazy.
Loads of work and I got to do so many things.
And I have family, friends and tuition to look at.
Not easy at all.
Sometimes I wonder why I had to do this
Though I told myself I will not do this after the first production.
The things that I lost during the first production were too precious to me then.
And I didnt get them back after the production.
And they werent small things.
People. I lost people.
Whether it was for the good or for the bad is secondary.
But the point here is that I lost people.
I am afraid that it might happen again.
I saw some signs of it yesterday.

I know that you are not feeling well but I was very tired. I am so occupied with my own things that I could not even ask you how you were. I feel so bad you know. I know you wanted to tell me about what was happening on your side but I was just bothered about myself. I am very sorry but I am busy. Let me get adjusted to this first. I feel that I might lose you. The fact that production might cause me to lose you is hurting me more than anything else.

I hope I wont lose you. Though you fail in other aspects, you are a nice person.
At times.