Do you know?

Do you know how difficult it is for me?

I cant even answer those questions that my friends are asking me. All of them, let me remind you, ALL OF THEM, are asking me why am I holding on? And I dont even have a answer. Is it because I told myself that you are a busy person before I spoke to you or is it that I am just ignorant and am pretending that everything is going good and fine.

Last night, I could not sleep again. Yes Fad, again and I was supposed to be actually resting so that I can start on my last paper. But no, I was waiting (dunno for what) and you send me this message, which I know you typed half asleep and just wanted to message for the sake of doing it. Why do you have to do such things? Do you know that it hurts? alot?

Hai, I dont know. Maybe I just need Fad and Friday. Maybe, Fad can stuff something good inside my head on Friday. Love you babe. You are really needed here.