Updates.

I am feeling very tired for the past few days. And the fact that the headache is not letting go of me is not helping much too. I feel so unhealthy and I really think its cause of lack of sleep. Yes I am one of those who falls sick if I don't get enough sleep.

And I think I am the one to be blamed for it. I stay up (at times) expecting a message or a call from you. But I have been going to bed very disappointed as, obviously I don't receive any of those from you. If not I am going to bed late cause I am doing my school work or talking to Jiv about my production. I should cut down on all of these. Its not helping me at all.

But last nights call to Sangs was much needed. I think she needed it more than I did. Just a random call to her and I had to hear about so many things. I mean if 2 people like each other, let them decide what they want to do. Don't step into their lives/issue under the name of concern and mess things up. Let them talk things out and come to a decision. I don't understand why the entire world gets so excited when 2 people declare their affection for one another. The irony is that the entire world gets excited except for the 2 direct parties. They are just so normal. People, grow up la.

Met Fad for a short while. Though it was for a short while I felt so happy meeting her. Told about my current state. She agrees that things are going abit too fast and its very natural for me to compare it with my past experience. But there is something that she told me that just woke me up. She said don't expect. Now I know the reasons for my disappointments and mood swings. Its mainly cause I am expecting abit from this relationship. I mean lets not talk about who is the one who is stirring expectations and stuff but I think I should not fall for it. Okay, so goal for this year: No expectations!

And to you: Maybe I am assuming rights over you when you are just my friend. Maybe I am expecting more from you. Maybe its just me. Don't worry, I have made some decisions regarding some certain things. I will work with them.

Adios.