When shit happens.

I guess it is one of those day when shit keeps on hitting you down and starts piling on you till you are just pushed down to the ground.

It sounds very pessimistic, doesn't it?

Well, but I guess sometimes such things have to happen. In fact, when it happens to people around you, you tend to get affected too. Honestly, at this stage, I am no longer the person who can give you a very confident answer to something and yes I do realise the changes and differences in me.

I used to be a person who always gave either a yes or a no whenever someone posed me a question. But today, I was put in a situation where I didn't know what to say or actually how to respond to that ongoing situation.

Lets face it. I cant handle matters of the heart. Maybe it is not that I cant handle it but more of a fact that I am unable to handle them anymore. My inability stems from my plain refusal to do such a thing. I am very afraid to slam or say anything. I used to laugh at people who were dumped or chucked by their partners. I even went to the extent of calling the entire incident as stupidity. But I don't think I would ever do it again. Sometimes, it is not stupidity. It is cause shit happens and it had happened.

Do you know what is the most painful thing about relationships and love? It is when you work so hard to keep the relationship going and the other partner fails to realise that and leaves you just like that. Hell starts when you start asking yourself all kinds of whys when deep down in your heart you know that you will never get any of the answers any time soon. It is painful.

All I can do for now, is to sympathise you and listen to you. Cause I am in a shitty position also. I am trying to swim towards the shore after nearly drowning twice or thrice. I am speechless and honestly, I have nothing to say.

I don't know man, but am I shunning at love?
Am I skeptical of man?
Or am I just afraid that
I might drown again?
I don't know.
I guess the saying suits here aptly.
Once bitten twice shy.

As usual, I will end off my entry with some lines from a song.

I want a world with no one in it.
Just a world with you.
I will live just beside you.
What else do I need in this world?
I would live for 7 generations.
Just with you.

Adios!