Weird Mix of Emotions.

I really don't know how to describe what I have been feeling for the past few days.

Do I regret?

Am I confused?

Am I disappointed?

Am I depressed?

Am I happy?

Am I skeptical?

Am I worried?

Am I sad?

Am I indulging in self sympathy?

I really don't know. It is very scary when you are unable to put a stop to your random thoughts. It is very scary. I think I am in state where I don't know what I want. Suddenly negativity seems to dominating my life though I am a strong advocate of optimism.

I know that I am a master of my life and mind. I know. But I do not know why I am so weak nowadays. It is true that the incident has affected me tremendously. But I know I have to go on with life. Life goes on and I have to see more things in life. You see that is the problem. I am aware of all this stuff. But sometimes the heart is refusing to accept all of these.

I don't know man. I really don't know.

I just hope I will get out of this circle soon.

I want to be happy.

And peaceful.

Dear lord,
All I want is you beside me.
As I know, if you are beside me
I will attain all the other elements of life.
Please guide your daughter.

Muruga Saranam!