Positive Thoughts.

Its Friday!Whee hoo! Now I know why the working adults love Fridays man. Its like during the week, you tell yourself," Man, I am reaching heaven". On Fridays, you just tell yourself, " MAN! I AM IN HEAVEN!!" Let me be clear on one thing here. Nah, I don't hate teaching. Its just that when I took up relief teaching this time, I had to look at other commitments too. But once again, I am sure that life is filled with commitments and I have more things to juggle in the forthcoming years. Its all in the training process I say!

And so, I entered the freezing staff room and spoke to some teachers in the morning. Then as usual, I set up my lappie and checked my mails and so forth. Rather surprising to see that I am no longer viewed but that indicates that you have moved on. Nah am not crying over it. I feel nothing. Oops! Am I supposed to feel like that? *winks*

Anyway coming back to the main point here, I went to my friendster account to check out my daily horoscope. As I have mentioned earlier, it works for me so it has become a habit for me in which, I check it out on a daily basis. In fact, it was my cousin Durkhi who introduced me to this this entire thing. Thanks piglet! Today's horoscope said that I have to be positive in whatever I do and it would make things smooth for me. Then did I realise that I was no longer that Viknesh who was always positive. I was positive to the extent that even when I had like 1000 pimples on my face, I would simply tell myself that," God loves me and he is showing me his love by presenting with small mountains of love. He is signaling to me that he is with me all the time". I was a very strong person and nothing could move me.

However, for the past few months or so, I have not been like that at all. Anything that happens to me, I would just collapse. I would just indulge myself into self pity and complaints. I would just sit down and start feeling all depressed and thinking about how shitty my life has been. I don't know why but when I read the horoscope for today, I just felt like something had slapped my face across. I have changed and its for the worst. Yes, I know that I went through many kinds of crisis especially during that period of time but now when I think about it, I don't think that was a good reason.

Yeah, I have decided that I should return back to my old self and enjoy my life like how I have always been enjoying. Maybe all those incidents were there to make me stronger and I just needed them to mature and grow.I have grown man. No doubts about it.

Much more stronger than before.

And I think Gandhi's quote is the best way to end off this entry:

"Keep your thoughts positive, because your thoughts become your words. Keep your words positive, because your words become your behaviours. Keep your behaviours positive, because your behaviours become your habits. Keep your habits positive, because your habits become your values. Keep your values positive, because your values become your destiny."

Adios.